This is how it starts

Anyone else out there feeling like I am this week? Out of sorts? Like everything is just … heavy?

I can’t stop watching CNN and I’m spending too much time on Twitter. I know this. But at the same time I feel like I’m watching our entire country crash and burn at the hands of a crazy person. I keep asking if this is real life … because how could it be … but sadly it is what it is. And it’s horrifyingly real.

Sad! Bigly. Huge.

The appointments of people who have no idea what they are doing. This is not normal. This shouldn’t be normal. This isn’t about Democrat vs Republican. This is about how people should be treated.

Friday is Inauguration Day and it’s coming whether we like it or not. Friday is also my husband’s 40th birthday. I figured I could at least turn the day into a celebration – of my husband – but he wants nothing to do with the day. That guy is going to work, followed by a soccer tryout at night for the Big Guy. All he wants is a cake. And it’s driving me nuts.

I need something to celebrate. I need to look for the good.

I do my best not to talk any election anything in front of the boys and only answer questions when they ask, on their level. They hear so much at school, at the store … literally everywhere else … that it doesn’t matter. The Doodle Bop curled up next to me the other day and sighed and asked what we were going to do when the new guy takes office Friday.

That’s right, he knew it was Friday. He’s 9.

And I gave him my speech. It is what it is. We don’t have to like it. We don’t have to agree. We have to be the change. (Something I’ve been telling the boys since the election.) That for all the bad decisions someone else makes, we can make the good ones. And if enough people keep making the good ones, little by little things will change. And if I want my kids to be the change, I have to be the change too.

I am filling the rest of this week with acts of kindness.

Yesterday I made a last second appointment and went down to the blood center to make a whole blood donation. I also checked to see if I was approved for the granulocytes donations. (I’m on the list!) I hate needles and blood but I know how much it’s needed so I am going to do what I can.

Today I was having an especially crappy morning so I paid for the coffee behind me in the drive thru.

I’m not sure what tomorrow holds, but I know this is how it starts.

By showing kindness to others in a week that feels heavy.

I’d love it if you join me.

One Comment

  1. I hear ya. After the election, I was in a tough place…consuming tons of news and losing optimism by the second. The holidays were a godsend because I had to focus on family and disconnect a lot. Now with the inauguration, I’m really thinking about how I’m going to approach things and be mindful of what I need to be the best champion for my values. It’s rough!

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