She’s blogging! And she knows it’s been over 5 months since she posted last.
I struggle so damn much with whether to keep this blog or to let it go for oh so many reasons. Something Robin posted really stuck with me since I read it on her blog a few months back.
Blog more, and stop giving a shit who reads it. It’s part of who you are.
It’s been eating at me ever since … because it’s true.
As usual, there is so much to catch up on that I am not even sure where to start. I’ll try to make this one a short post. In June, the twins got to spend some time in New York filming another movie. And had the most amazing time. I’ll write about that one in a post all by itself later.
Since July, it’s been audition after audition along with trying to fit in football, soccer, tennis, drums and guitar … oh and now school too. I’d say the entire summer we made it to the beach maybe 4 or 5 times. And if you know me at all you know that’s just crazy.
If I’m being completely honest, most days I feel like I’m drowning. Trying to tread water and keep my head just above the surface. I’m breaking down in frustration far too often and I feel like I’m constantly playing catch up. But I don’t actually get caught up.
Everything I do? I do for my boys. We actually had a long talk about it in the truck on the way from the orthodontist to school this morning. I may complain – like all the time – but I would do just about anything for those munchkin heads.
Last week we managed to juggle multiple NYC trips, plus Boston, open house at school – and actually going to school – the best we could with a little help. Football practice had to give a little, but we got to everything we possibly could. We are in this weird limbo right now where the boys could be about to do some really cool things acting wise … or it could turn out to be nothing and we are on to the next.
Yesterday after the football game, we were able to head to Six Flags New England as part of Media Day and spend the entire afternoon and night at Fright Fest. I am beyond grateful for the opportunities writing has given me. Not only do I get to do these things with my family, but I get to do them with girlfriends who became girlfriends because of writing.
This crew right here? Mommas and I became close before any of our kids were in full time school. It may only really be a few years ago, but it feels like a lifetime at the same time. If you ask our kids how long they have known each other, I’m pretty sure they would tell you forever.
Because they were too young to remember actually meeting. All because mom writes.
Which is just one more reason to keep writing.